thats phillip with one l

Wed, 15 Jul 2009 17:11:54 GMT

Im done waiting around for any body.
For now one its "with or without you"
I will not be stepped on anymore over someone elses expence

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today is our...

Sat, 04 Jul 2009 00:34:16 GMT

independence day.

the closer it gets to july fourth, the closer i get to declaring my independence from the studio.

how poetic.

will it happen, maybe. its really just a matter of time.

This or that?

Wed, 24 Jun 2009 08:40:10 GMT

As i lie awake with the internet as my only comfort i realize that im reaching yet another turning point in my life. What is this point in question? I need to change careers. Its sad yet oh soo true. My heart is not in it anymore. I cannot drone away infront of the computer no longer.

It is said; if you do what you love you will never work a day in your life. This not always the case. Ive been a graphic designer for 3 years now. I dont know if i have another 3 left in me. Being creative is what im best at but it was always been more of a past time for me. My creative integrety is being tested every day i step foot into that office. And for what? A paycheck? Now this past time is a means to survive? This use to be fun. Now its all being sucked away. I must be crazy. Most of my college friends dont even have jobs yet. I should be so lucky. But its not for me anymore. I dont want to be creative 48 hrs a week. I want to save it for myself, im selfish. Im jaded. This art game is ugly.

How can there be soo much ugliness in sometihng so beautiful?

So what do i do? I dont know. For some reason i cant sit still. Since ive moved form sac i have not been in a living situation for more than a year and a half. And ive been in la for almost 4 years. I need new. I need a new job. A new country. A new city. A new place. A new life. A new struggle.

I feel like ive been in this 3 year relationship and ive only been in it for so long because i got comfy and its easy. But now she wants to get married and now im not sure if shes right for me. We shouldnt break up but we should have some time apart. Cuz i love her but i want to see what else is out there. And now shes all crying and i feel bad and like a jerk for leaving... Yea kinda like that.

Well graphic design im leaving you. Some day. Its not you its me. We can still be friends ok?

I think i want to be a mechanic.

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this is how i feel

Sat, 25 Apr 2009 00:38:05 GMT

god damn, i love it when you can find a song that fits your life like a glove

JUXTAPOZ

Fri, 27 Mar 2009 23:02:38 GMT

holy shit.

dreams do come true!

reach for the stars people FUCKIN REACH!

very exciting

Thu, 26 Mar 2009 01:10:54 GMT

run run run

Thu, 26 Feb 2009 00:37:34 GMT

if the only thing you do is run away from your problems, running is the only thing you will be capable of.

don't run, dig your heals into the ground and brace for impact.

not matter what your mind might tell you, there is always a way to fix what is broken.

so lets all stop being pathetic and start fucking shit up.

see you at the top. *salute*

karma case study

Wed, 18 Feb 2009 03:11:57 GMT

i lose my the gate remote for the company parking lot, shortly after that i lose the keys to get into the office.

on the other hand, i get a phat raise and i hook up with one of my biggest crushes at the office.

what the hell are these situations tryin to tell me?

this case blows my pervious theory of karma out of the water.

mainly cuz all the happenings in my life are work related...

the only thing i have out side of work is kiwi, tv and xbox.

whats the next move i should make?

is there such a thing as too much good stuff?

am i going to have another major change on my hands?

shit... only the future knows...

give me a reason to hate my own culture

Wed, 07 Jan 2009 03:17:20 GMT

THIS GUY! WTF MAN!
GROSS COLORD HAT?
KABBA MODERN T SHIRT?
PLEASE GET THE FUCK OUT!
please philippino people get it the fuck together!

all hope is lost.

we must teach our young that this is not acceptable.

"whens the last time you got a raise?"

Fri, 02 Jan 2009 21:49:31 GMT

asked the boss to the employee.

i think im going to get another raise soon, yippie!

its gunna be a good year.

burning the midnight oil.

Wed, 17 Dec 2008 10:43:21 GMT

i just got home from work. im doing a collaboration with Ernesto Yerena (look em up) its gunna be fuckin iller than a killer watching thriller.

i figured something out today.

if you want something, like really want something... you need to fucking take it. fuck the rest.

fuck all this wishing bullshit.

if your not hungry your not going to eat.

and if u dont eat... u die. and im tooo young too die.

and fyi no more hand outs from me. im done being "i feel sorry for you" clean up crew guy.

i have a fine tolerance for slackers.

2009 is gunna crack off.

surround your self with people that will help you. itll be better for every one.

btw... ive been watching alot if The Office and the more i watch it the more my life becomes a sitcom.

i started at season 4 and im working my way back.

i figured im a cross between jim, dwight and toby.

that is all... have a good morning.

good bye

Thu, 04 Dec 2008 17:14:36 GMT

fair well

to you my frieeennd

soo long

fair well

intill we meeeeet again!

p.s.
good riddance

Haha

Mon, 20 Oct 2008 08:15:48 GMT

O man.... I got an iphone. And I got the lj app. It's pretty sweet. Now I can post from anywhere!!!!!!' ahahahahaha

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o boy.

Fri, 17 Oct 2008 06:23:40 GMT

karma karma karma.... why must u punish me?

hold the fucking phone here.

Wed, 15 Oct 2008 06:19:47 GMT

wait what?!

is my thrusday night fucked up already?.... its only tuesday!

u have got to be fucking kidding me...

say it aint soo... bradly... from work... is comming too? am i gunna have to pick him up from the airport as well?!

im bout to blow a gasket

this really cant be happening... this is a sick joke right? am i being punk'd?

throw me a frickin bone here.

what the flying fuck am i doing wrong?

this is where anticipation turns into fear.

last time i checked that wasnt a virtu

passive aggressive.

Tue, 07 Oct 2008 05:41:46 GMT

i feel like i need to keep track of everything for other people.
or else no one will no what to do with themselves.

too bad i dont need to do that and people need to figure things out on their own.

put that in your blog and post it.

Wed, 01 Oct 2008 05:05:47 GMT

o yea?

o yea!

i guess im a bad guy. i mean... i do have a decepticon emblem tattooed on my fore arm...

moving on...

u never know how much dog shit is actually laying on a side walk till you have a dog.

i mean my god theres a lot of dog shit in my neighborhood.

but for you that arnt in the know i did get a 4 month old puppy. and her name is kiwi.

i really feel like a single parent.

just call me the dog father.

i rescued her from my friend that was going to put her in the pound... i couldnt let a pup like hers go.

she still needs some potty lessons but she is getting there. i mean she shits like 5 times a day. she poops in my room somtimes. bout how can u get mad at a face like that?

love of my life.

DAMMINT....

during the writing of this post... my fuckin dog peed all over my roommate AND thhe couch he was sitting in...

baaad dog... shes out on the porch now for a time out.

anyways... she still cute as hell.

inner beef.

Tue, 30 Sep 2008 08:25:27 GMT

so.

i didn't think you still read this journal.

hey. you.... yea. you.

im sorry.

that was pretty fucked of me.

but cant a brother juss vent.

sure sure i know an explanation is in order.

what else can i say other than: "ive been awkward"

cuz for some reason im missing the part of my brain that cant even have a regular conversation with you.

sorry for talking shit, and being a hater.

maybe i really should think before i speak.

i just kinda think your being a kiss ass, brown noser, suck up with that painting...
and i dont see the integrity in that... maybe i was juss expecting too much?

i mean... what happen to the dope floral shit?

soo IM thinking YOUR thinking..." hey i know what shep might like! a led zeppelin painting! i bet hell buy it! he looooves led, didnt he juss do their album cover?"
then im thinking... WOWOW losssser...

correct me it im wrong here.. and if i am i just another worthless dick.

forgive me.

it could of totally been out of coincidence and im just reading to deeeeeply into it,

now i prolly sound like the loser. but hey. the cats out of the bag now.

think of me what u will.

but i really do think its a nice painting and i hope it sells.

friends still? i really am embarrassed and sorry... this is kinda awkward u know...

um... see u tomorrow??

and fair thee well internet, i wish to you a goodnight.

LED ZEPPELIN?! are u fuckin kidding me?

Tue, 30 Sep 2008 00:38:47 GMT

how low will you go?

this is just fuckin sad....

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a study in karma.

Sat, 27 Sep 2008 20:37:23 GMT

ignorance is bliss i suppose.

my 6 months is up and i need to pay off my student loans.

and o boy let me tell you it aint pretty... im in the hole A LOT A LOT A LOT. and on my salary i cant hang.

and whats even worse is im late a few days for my first payment... im feeling a reprimand coming swiftly.

also i manned up and asked mommy for A LOT A LOT A LOT of help. pride, at this point isnt in my vocabulary.

damnit... i havent even left my house yet im feeling the crunch soo bad... rent is due. loan payment is due and thats pretty much my whole months paycheck out the door right there.

here comes the shift. preparations are in order... eating will soon become a luxury

hahaha.... im fucked.

i need that check from my art show badly.
i need a raise.

going steady?

Thu, 25 Sep 2008 08:13:45 GMT

old flames reignited?

3 day trips to la?....

uh oh.

last weekend seems like a blur.

seeing the fam bam was fuckin great. everything i thott it was going to be. helllla refreshing. it was soooo good to see everybody cant wait till the next "reunion"

but see.
i got a chance to hang out with reychelle again. and fuck did i miss her. i know it seems dumb, going after her again... but there is something about what we have that i find really awesome. anyways. she see it too.
we got to talking and we both admitted some pretty heavy stuff, that too was refreshing.
i basically said that ive always had her in the back of my mind and that i just still like her.

her kiss at the end of the night told me "ditto"...

she even dropped me off at the airport.
fitting, cuz ill be picking her up from one soon.
i dont know how i should take this: with a grain of salt, or a spoon full of sugar...
w/e im content with just letting it ride.

i just want to know how this will play out with my whole theory on karma.
i do know that i will be talking the friday off for her when i really shouldnt.
the scales could be tipping sooner than expected...

ATTENTION VOTERS!!!!!!!!

Thu, 25 Sep 2008 02:17:25 GMT

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HOT DAMN.

Thu, 18 Sep 2008 20:15:25 GMT

karma

Thu, 18 Sep 2008 06:03:11 GMT

let me attempt to explain to u the facts of my life.

i have 2 sets of karma: social and professional...

social deals with all things... social. wether it be friends, family, lovers.

professional, deals with the amount of tangible success in my life.

and i believe that these two are linked and share the same pool of good and bad karma.

with that being said...

ill always have money in my pocket, but be socially awkward.

ill be broke with no place to stay, but have friends willing to lend a helping hand...

fallow?

so as of right now. all my good karma is on my professional side.

good ass job. nice ass house. sold out show. fuck yea...

so in turn my social karma must suffer for my success.

im only basing this on the fact that i have sacrificed a lot to be as successful as i am today. i have also done everything by the book and i have paid my dues. i was selfless for the act of my success. i juggled a full class schedule and 2 internships for 6 months. worked as an intern for my current job for a year and a half.

so that explains why i have the best job ever and moved into the nicest house i have ever lived in and pay almost nothing for rent.

on a social level im a complete dick. i have done many fucked up things in my life that i am not proud of, nor do i wish to share and will probably take those actions to the grave. i have self sabotaged relationships because i was to afraid to share my true feelings. ive done many people dirty.

soo that explains why im soo fuckin awkward, really bad mood swings and my inability to be datable.

so since they share from the same karma pool, i cant have 100% good/bad karma for both.

and thats were the problem is. i need to find a medium. i need balance.

the only way i think it can work is if i dick people over professionally. which will cause a chain reaction for me to rely on my social karma, which if im correct will lead in doing more positive "social things" THUS regaining balance and becoming well rounded and generally happier.
easier said than done.

thee end.

... that was just a lil peek into my thott process.

glue.

Sun, 14 Sep 2008 23:04:13 GMT

the 2 greatest people in the world.